Wednesday, 6 June 2012

Fever XXI (Charlie)


XXI - Charlie

            Charlie had run out of breath.  He was standing at the end of a corridor facing a tall Georgian window – the only feature in a perfectly prison-like dead-end.  Blank walls stretched out behind him into the gloom, a trail of echoing footsteps and breaths torn from the air.  He was nearly doubled over; his heart beating so fast that he would not have been surprised had it exploded within him.  He wondered what that would feel like.  His throat was raw, his eyes burning; he could hear the rush of blood in his ears.  He still wanted to run, but his body was screaming against it and there was nowhere else to go.

            Young lungs catch their breath quickly, young hearts recover with ease, and Charlie was soon standing upright again, breathing stale hospital air.  The thick granite walls were not proof against the December chill and there was a slight draught coming up from the gaunt window frame.  The boy shivered in his pyjamas, drawing his arms up around himself.  Suddenly he felt very much alone.

            His panicked thoughts, as chaotic as the flight which inspired them, trailed off into the unnatural silence.  It seemed unimportant how the adults were behaving now.  It was dark, it was cold and he now knew for a fact that there really were such things as monsters (whatever the old man says), so priorities were shifting.

            Maybe I should have stayed with Paige.

            He bit his lip.

            Charlie had difficulty developing attachments, especially to adults.  His turbulent relationship with his father and the absence of his mother made him distrustful and unused to any kind of tenderness or intimacy.  It had made perfect sense for him to run away when the adults had been fighting, after all, he didn’t really know any of them anyway and so they were as alien as the rest of his circumstances, but the same instincts that had led him to his father, despite his most rational fears, now made him want to seek whatever human comfort he could find.  Paige seemed the most likely.  She had tried to comfort him, at least, and whilst Charlie found that a little unnerving, that was as much because it intrigued him as anything else.

            Maybe I should have stayed.

            There was a sudden groaning sound, like ancient, straining metal, which echoed along the halls of the hospital, almost as if the sound was deliberately searching for him.  He let out a yelp and there was an abrupt, blade-sharp silence.

            I should have stayed.  I should have stayed!  I don’t want to be all alone.

            Panic rose within him like a dark tide, stifling, choking, drowning.  Heart and lungs alike were struggling as if he had never had the time to recover and he stood there, shallow little breaths, the silent darkness mocking him with its innocuous stillness.

            Movement.  He knew had to start moving.  The corridor didn’t feel safe anymore.  The hospital didn’t feel safe anymore.
           
Is anywhere safe, now?

            He found himself taking turns at random, feeling the gaping darkness of rooms off to either side; rooms he had no desire to explore, enter or even think about, but whose black-hole doorways sucked at him relentlessly.  His breathing seemed to multiply along the corridors, as if there were others in the darkness, watching and waiting, following less blindly than he was leading.  His little footsteps sounded pathetic against the pace of such imagined enemies.  Imagination itself was little comfort.

            Another groan echoed around the building. Charlie could actually feel the cold, linoleum-covered floor quiver this time, not in the solid, dusty way of stone shaking stone, but in a way that was almost organic – a shiver, a pulse.  Strange sounds clicked and squelched around him.  The floor became wet, sticky, slick.  The gaping doors seemed almost to have breath of their own, chill, but rank.  Charlie heard himself whimper and broke into a run.  His feet slipped across the floor and he nearly stumbled over the suddenly uneven surface.  The silence around him was punctuated by unnatural noises.  He recognised the sighs and moans from his room back in the apartment.  He could hear drips and splashes and the sounds of peeling, sliding movement.  He was no longer alone.

            His pace increased.  If he had run quickly before, now he was like lightning.  He hoped, desperately, to find himself in some semblance of normality, even to be surrounded by strangers, so long as they were human.

            I want to wake up!

            Then, unexpectedly, the sibilant chorus of silence gained another voice, one which wept hysterically.  It sent a shiver of terror through Charlie’s spine along with flashes of memory; the days when his mother still lived with him and he would come running to her, desperate to show off some new find or creation, only to discover her huddled in a corner, tears leaking down her bruised face, arms defensive.  The image had horrified him then and now he was seeing it anew in the back of his mind as the monsters seemed to close in around him.  He could her wrenching sobs and almost make out the words.

            “Please stop!”

            Now he saw images of his father, belt in hand, sending lash after lash of searing leather down onto his mother’s bare skin.

            “Please!”

            He was finding it hard to breathe.  The walls - sticky, burnt and oozing fluids - seemed to be closing in.  He could feel the blows hitting him.  He could hear the screams, hers and his own.  He was suffocating.

            “Why don’t you just stop you old harridan!  Stop tormenting me!”

            That wasn’t his mother.

            Deep breath.

            But he did know that voice.

            Calm down.  Think clearly.

            It was… Paige.

            Paige!

            “Paige!”

            As he ran towards the sound of crying his voice seemed to shatter the strange spell his surroundings had been under.  Drips became echoes, slime became cool stone and the uneven floor smoothed into tiles.  Oil lamps flickered on to either side at intervals and Paige’s voice rebounded off bare, stone walls towards him.

            “Please, just shut up!” she screamed.

            “Paige!  It’s me!”  He skidded around a corner and found her huddled on the floor outside a series of cells with thick wooden doors, blotched with the heads of cast iron nails, “Are you alright?”

            She looked up at him, slowly, her grease-streaked face becoming wide-eyed and full of wonder.

            “She’s stopped at last!  You made her go away!”   She rose, stepped towards him and then her gaze wandered around the room they were in, glancing off the intimidating-looking doors to each of the cells.  Her expression dissolved.  “Where the hell are we?”

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