Friday 1 June 2012

Fever XIX (Josh)


XIX - Josh

            The smell was getting worse.  The viscous fluid was sloshing around his ankles and Josh was struggling to keep himself steady.  Nausea was making him feel faint, his extremities were tingling slightly and his legs were increasingly comparable to jelly.  The corridor seemed to sway slightly from left to right as he moved, the walls swimming away from him as he tried to find his balance.  His joints ached and he was starting to feel very cold.  It was like he was coming down with a severe case of the flu, but falling to the floor and drowning alone in the darkness beneath the blood and pus and disease – it didn’t bare thinking about, so he kept moving.

            He found the going easier if he made sure that one hand kept contact with the wall the whole time, so he leaned slightly to his right and felt his way along, hoping desperately that he would find another door, or window, or anything that meant he could leave the corridor and find some fresh air and a place to lie down in safety.  Each step felt heavier than the last.  The fluid was thickening around him and the corridor seemed to stretch on into an eternity of pustulent darkness.

            How did I end up here?

            The sound of his own breathing was becoming alien, distant and hollow, like waves lapping a far off shore,.  He tried to focus his mind on the events of the evening so far, but the heat in his head and the chill in his body were becoming too distracting and it already seemed like forever ago since he was speaking to Paige outside the apartments.

            This is stupid.  I’m going to die in a nightmare.

It was almost like a dream.  He was finding it hard to distinguish between internal and external reality and although he could trace the actions that led to the present moment, even his argument with Henry felt like another life.  Reality was losing all meaning whatsoever.

He stumbled, sending a wave of lumpy fluid splashing against the wall, and quickly grabbed the concrete surface with both hands to stop himself falling.  He was panting.  He heard the echo of something sloshing back into the blood.  Burning in the back of his throat.  He retched.

Doubled over, heaving out the last remnants of a meal eaten hours ago, he could feel his final reserves of energy flowing out with it.

I think…

It was too hard to think.

I think I really am…

Too hard by far.
           
…going to die.

            He could hear voices.  There were lights.

            Then he collapsed.

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