Wednesday, 9 May 2012

Fever VII (Josh)


VII - Josh

            Dark, empty streets have a unique character to them.  It isn't always an unpleasant character, but it is one you cannot completely trust.  They are peaceful, but full of potential energies: handholding, kissing, running, theft - violence and rape.  You cannot trust dark streets, but you can find unexpected treasures on them.  That character takes on a different form depending on circumstances.  For the four survivors from the apartment block that character had become twisted.  There was little hope of treasure on these streets and the potentials they all felt were fear, pain and death.

            Josh led the way, feigning confidence.  He knew that the people with him were relying on him somehow to get them to the hospital in one piece.  He knew the way and he held the torch and it all kind of made sense.  Except, of course, that none of it did.  He was just a teenager, a troublemaker, a bored delinquent who was unsure as to how he had found himself in this other life, one where he could lead and where people listened to him and where the price for such responsibilities was terrible danger.  He tried to look confident, but how could a lie like that ever end well?

            Even aside from his own leadership skills, Josh doubted that the hospital was going to be any better than any other part of the city.  It was like they had all descended into hell somehow, a private hell, just for the four of them.  There wasn't going to be anyone else.  They would find the hospital and it would be dark like the rest of the city, or worse: part of some new nightmare with more fire or reigning meteorites or any thing else you might want to pick from the apocalypse section of your dinner menu.

            Josh shook his head.  It didn't help to think that way.  It didn't help to think at all, but there are some things it's hard to keep from your mind.  He tried to think about something mundane.  School.  All his friends, not that he had many, they were somewhere else entirely, or dead, or...  Family.  He wasn't close to any of them.  He had left his mother behind in their apartment and hadn't even thought about her until now.  That seemed to render any concern he might have had moot.  If he didn't care before, why should he do so now?

            But what if she was back there, trapped in the apartments surrounded by those monsters?  She hadn't been a great parent, but that didn't mean she deserved that.  No one did.

            How many others might there have been?

            It didn't help to think that way.  It didn't help to think at all.

            "Charlie?"

            They were crossing a deserted junction and Charlie had stopped midway, his gaze following the south road towards the city centre.  The glow of the fire was nowhere to be seen.

            "Charlie, we need to keep moving."  Paige had walked over beside him and Josh now stood a few feet away from the curb, shining the torch back in their direction.  Charlie didn't respond.  Paige knelt down on the tarmac and leaned in close to the boy.  "What is it?"

            He raised an arm and pointed down the road.  "My mum lives that way."

            "Do you want to go and see her?"

            He shook his head.  "No, but...  I wondered...” He turned to look at Paige and Josh caught a glimpse of his wide, earnest eyes reflected in the beam.  "Is she alright?"

            "I don't know, Charlie, but we have to keep moving."

            The boy nodded gravely and Josh turned the beam away.

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